im trying to get into the christmas mood - hence the christmas theme! thinking about christmas hasent been a good thing the last few weeks, ive been thinking of LAST christmas - i was happy and had peter and the kids. it all started actually when i realised that i had no more christmas decorations - id left them all at peters house. but im trying to get myself in a better frame set. ive figured out everyone’s christmas presents - most of them are on layby. im getting a new camera (much better one) - “santa” is buying it for me. when i get it i hope to update my marilyn book page - taking photos will be a LOT easier than scanning! next week we will be getting the tree up and buying some new decorations which i think will get me in the mood. im gonna get some lights for the tree for the first time which will be good - curtis will love it! speaking of curtis — he’s 7 on thursday! fuck me, 7!!! time flys! he’s a great 7 year old tho 
i hope to blog a bit more this month, but we’ll see how we go! *wink wink*
I’m getting settled back in finally! My computer and clippings are almost 100% unpacked. I’m so happy to be back. I need to do some much needed work on my fan sites. All of them need some TLC! I got my Marilyn book - The Life, The Myth in the mail the other day. It’s speechless! I took some photos so I could share! Its my favorite Marilyn book! OK - one of!
But I’m off to the movies tonight with some friends to see Georgia Rule which I hope will be good.
I’ve never spent so much on a book - but I’m sooo excited! It’s the cheapest Ive seen it go on eBay, I’ll share with you all scans and photos from it when it arrives. SO EXCITED!
PLUG: The fabulous GRW has a stunning new layout! Check it out!
Its so hard to find boxes for packing. Every time I try a supermarket they say come back at another time. I finally got some this afternoon tho - started packing. My Marilyn books are now all packed up and labeled “HEAVY” - gotta be careful with them tho! I did leave one out - the one I have by my computer, “The Unbridged Marilyn, Her Life From A-Z“, the best and easiest reference book I’ve found on Marilyn. I’m lucky enought to have 2 copies [soft cover and hard back]. On the topic of Marilyn books, I’ve found a copy of Clark Kidders “UnCovers” on eBay which I’m going to bid on. I have the other two Marilyn covers books he’s dont [Cover To Cover and Cover To Cover Second Edition] so this would be a great addition to the collection! AND on the topic of eBay, I had another good week with my auctions, my two biggest sales were Mickey Rourke for $52.66 USD and Vincent D’Onofrio for $87 USD.
Anyone want to buy me a present? *bats eye lids!*
If I didn’t need all my money for moving I would so buy it! Its my biggest Marilyn want!
Peter and I are on speaking terms and I’m hoping we can remain friends. I’m feeling better about leaving. I’m glad he’s doing ok. Thing’s seem brighter today so I’m in a better mood. He did ask me to go one more “round” before I go home - and really I would love to because he’s the BEST I’ve ever had, but i told him I couldn’t, it would hurt too much and makes things too hard. I’m going to be strong! I am def. going to miss it tho!
Word of the day. Use it in a sentence. I feel guilty.
Peter rang me today to tell me I broke two hearts [his and his daughters] . He also sent me a text telling me what she has been saying to him. I feel awful. I don’t want it. Guilt I mean, but I guess it’s the price I pay for choosing. I don’t want him to be sad, hurt - nothing that involves pain. I’m hoping he will get help for his depression and with his next realtionship I hope it has a better chance. When he rang today he asked why we couldn’t do a long distance thing, I said I mentioned that to you before and you told me right off that “no it wouldn’t work, no point” and said fair enough. Tomorrow is a public holiday - no school. I’m guessing the next day I’ll see him is Thursday at school, I hope it goes ok - seeing him I mean. I need to give him back his house key and talk about him getting his stuff from my place. Anyone want to take my job?
I got a unit/flat today. Mum said its a bit smaller than what I have now. It’s all happened soooo quickly. I saw it yesterday [after we broke up] on the net, rang about it, my mum went and had an inspection today, she said yes, they faxed me an application, I faxed it back and by 5pm today they told me I had it. It’s empty now, I’ll move in next Friday. SO - the next 11 days is going to be FRANTIC! Packing, cleaning and organizing. I have to gather up some boxes and sort out my stuff. Stuff I don’t need needs to be given to a better home [op shops ahoy!]
Wish list — new bed, washing machine, new microwave, new jeans, new boots and a haircut.
Happy 1000 to me! I now have a red star on eBay. My feedback is now 1001. I’m going to be listing a bunch of auctions tomorrow with a starting bid of $4.99 - most will have buy-it-nows for $9.99, $14.99 and $19.99. I’ll post them when I list them.